Finally i m out of NS(National Service)... Its been 2 years and its an blink of an eyes that it has passed so fast... Days had to go on, time wait for no man...
Today, 11/12/09 i went back to the clementi divison to retrieve my IC and group photo...
It was kinda feel good and outa stress to not see those people at there... :P
Haiz... sumtimes jus had a feeling that missed some of the nicest people out there... Looking back at the past was kinda stress, back then had lots of things happend which i dont wanna intend to be it, back then if not for "those friends" there, i would not be getting trouble most of the times...
Months ago, had a friend who went to army, its been sometimes since i didnt meet him well not that i wanna bad mouthing him but from the past he was sumtimes "outcast" me for like some reason that i dont know?!! But sumtimes i really think why issit that for something happen years ago and u dont wanna repeat it again and u had the feeling there well i really dont know how to put it in such a way that it is understand but somehow it is the way as it was to be...
Well many people had really changed just that i m stayed behind or maybe people dont trust me
but why am i so worst??
Well recently had some friends meet up at coffee bean and we chat up abt how friends are and we jus chat abt almost everything but we all not to talk bad abt them when they are not around but yea jus want to u know how each of then feel abt each other in such a way that to speak out wat they feel...
Well then thats all for now then...
Stay tuned...
Friday, December 11, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
So long
Its been so long since my very last post... Well many things had happen for the past few months and i left with another 4 months before i finish my national sevice
People had been smearing at me treating me like dirt kind of stuff.....Well have they ever think for themselves?? I mean i have done nothing wrong and worst still they call me arrogant... In wat way am i arrogant?? What abt them?? Arent they arrogant too i mean do they think that they are wrong towards right?? Can i say they are racist?? Mayb?? Mayb not...
Is not like u know i m been protected... Yeah mayb they think i have "kakis" but is that anything wrong?? Dont think so... But the truth is did i stand out to say anything when they "bully me"?? i mean cmon i jus wanna have the least collision manz.... If i have problems i will go talk to those "kakis" (Those kakis are not those bad guys wat i mean that was those in station that i hang out with them get i mean??) If i m at my mistake well i might try my best to take note and learn from it.... Sumtimes they giv face also did i say anything??? No rite??
Sumtimes i wonder if i never appeared on this planets, all this might never happen, not even the whole story.. Want to take on me,u better not let me stay alive manz and those kidddos that says wanna wack me when i finish my service?? Yeah u can manz... And they can they can escape jus wacking me and changing statement by saying it was an accidents?? Yeah?? u think u can do that?? U think this country doesnt have law?? Think again kiddys though i dont much money but i think i can sue u til u go bankrupt EVEN if i dont have that priority to do that BUT if u really can just wack me the way u want to be, carry on manz.... I believe there's justice.....
Monday, June 22, 2009
How Days are Gone
Well at least seen sumone posting up a post about his YMCA camp kinda felt glad to him though i didnt go and read it buta i guess he might have fun to what he is going through.....
As for me i m not in a good condition to what i m.... became rebellious and was like toally the bad guy... I dont wanna u to feel scared i mean like how come i have became like this?? i dont know, i just became bad at home towards bad mood most of the time.... i really dunno what i m thinking... i have good times bad times i really dont know where my path leads to mayb its kinda scaring for me buta i know it isnt good either....
Sometimes really wanna feel crying out but jus tears rolling down the cheeks....
Haiz... still have another 25 weeks to until my end of road, wondering what would i wanna do after that or mayb jus resting at home for a months or weeks to see wat i wanna do... I had a friend whom is a gal, she told me that why do i have to think so much?? Sumthing it doesnt happen dun try to think of it, whats yours is yours and what isnt yours 4get it then
Am i really thinking too much?? To me i dont think so i mean i really dont know kinda confused sumtimes.... Sumtimes i couldnt resist temptation BUT didnt go for it jus that had the urge to go for it thats all (mayb u understand mayb u dont if u dont 4get it)
Days are really passing fast and slow i realy didnt execpt time just past by without knowing whats happening around you... Having lots of worries keeping troubles in me cant jus 4get easily or like blink of an eye to clean 4get abt it... Path toward me are far and long and i really had no future no life... feeling so hurt inside me.... I really couldnt control the temper of myself sumtimes when gone chaotic.... Really wanna find back the old me but i cant....
Recently jus bought some playstation 3 games like Dynasty warriors 6 and Virtua Tennis 2009 both is kinda nice game but seldom play coz most of the times been watching videoz like wwe monday night and friday smackdown.... yeah... Well thats all i can say for now
Anthing comments on me...
As for me i m not in a good condition to what i m.... became rebellious and was like toally the bad guy... I dont wanna u to feel scared i mean like how come i have became like this?? i dont know, i just became bad at home towards bad mood most of the time.... i really dunno what i m thinking... i have good times bad times i really dont know where my path leads to mayb its kinda scaring for me buta i know it isnt good either....
Sometimes really wanna feel crying out but jus tears rolling down the cheeks....
Haiz... still have another 25 weeks to until my end of road, wondering what would i wanna do after that or mayb jus resting at home for a months or weeks to see wat i wanna do... I had a friend whom is a gal, she told me that why do i have to think so much?? Sumthing it doesnt happen dun try to think of it, whats yours is yours and what isnt yours 4get it then
Am i really thinking too much?? To me i dont think so i mean i really dont know kinda confused sumtimes.... Sumtimes i couldnt resist temptation BUT didnt go for it jus that had the urge to go for it thats all (mayb u understand mayb u dont if u dont 4get it)
Days are really passing fast and slow i realy didnt execpt time just past by without knowing whats happening around you... Having lots of worries keeping troubles in me cant jus 4get easily or like blink of an eye to clean 4get abt it... Path toward me are far and long and i really had no future no life... feeling so hurt inside me.... I really couldnt control the temper of myself sumtimes when gone chaotic.... Really wanna find back the old me but i cant....
Recently jus bought some playstation 3 games like Dynasty warriors 6 and Virtua Tennis 2009 both is kinda nice game but seldom play coz most of the times been watching videoz like wwe monday night and friday smackdown.... yeah... Well thats all i can say for now
Anthing comments on me...
Friday, April 17, 2009
Days are Hard
So fast so soon been 16 months... and 8 more months gonna leave the force which means ord....
My sis have been back from taiwan since yesterday and she brought me two shirts one looks kinda small but it look very nice la... which is the want u see below the front and the back, nice??
My sis have been back from taiwan since yesterday and she brought me two shirts one looks kinda small but it look very nice la... which is the want u see below the front and the back, nice??
The want u see above is the second piece which i mention earlier saying it looks kinda small but dont u think its nice?? i m like couldnt nearly fit it but yea... When my sis giv me the shirt she said that its very expensive and i was like yea i know its very expensive coz in taiwan mah then she told me its 60 bucks in taiwan dollars..... i can say i like it very much coz this time at least sumthing.... its sumthing that it looks nicer....
And i bought a lappy since days ago (14th april 2009) then no matter wad i had to tell my sis coz she is paying it i mean although my mum hokd the credit card but it was given by my sis then i told her that i buy lappy coz pc down.... then she was like screwed me for anyhow spent money on this kind of stuff.. if pc were to break down and wanted the files can go repair it for like 3-4 days buta i told her i call the dell company to repair it and i think she was like kinda mad... Coz she knows that u dont have a proper job though i told her that i work as a police force but she said this doesnt counted.... muz have at least have a proper job and she told me that even if u have money also doesnt need to waste this kind of money.... and i was like hiaz...
before buying i had already knew this was coming coz if i dont tell the bill will tell it and no matter wad i had to explained it...
Yea i know that i m a spoiled brat but..... i dunno jus that i really want sumthing i had to get it done its kinda difficult for me to change this... i really dunno wad i should i do very vexed wanted to change this kind of attitude but it takes a long time or mayb some days...
I believe myself that i had a worst attitude toward my family (i mean mine sis) coz i know myself that my mun was like gg to collasped anytime from now and i m still like that.... Haiz....
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Breathe
Hey have been wondering why am i getting less and less posting blog leh?! Well mayb u do or mayb u dont even care then...
Because its kinda stress and sumtimes dont wanna feel like writing here though....
Days ago which is saturday i went out with friends to sumwhere and ton at orchard...it was kinda tiring omg... super tired....and the following day, they said they wanted to take first trains buta the "1st train" was like dunno became which 1st train liao then i was like reaching home abt 8:30am and was like ya know sleep like 4hrs and really after which was like couldnt take it tho....
Actaully they say i m "anti social" well its not that bah but perhaps i think i have no topics within them?? Opps... I mean this is seriously i jus walked behind them and i find nothing to talk to them....
And yea today(4/7/09 , tuesday) i met Allan for lunch but i think he was gg to clementi ite for some purposes then after which i met him outside my station and we go have lunch at sumo house...then we chatted along the way then was like okie la... we chated abt things that what i wanna say then discussed loh...
Actually i m like 50/50 le doesnt know how to endure thru the days of 35 weeks.... its kinda long... zzz..... Sumtimes people tends to regret certain stuff after what they had done i think for me too... Jus taken the wrong path without knowing... its kinda sad....
I think i jus stop here bah....
Because its kinda stress and sumtimes dont wanna feel like writing here though....
Days ago which is saturday i went out with friends to sumwhere and ton at orchard...it was kinda tiring omg... super tired....and the following day, they said they wanted to take first trains buta the "1st train" was like dunno became which 1st train liao then i was like reaching home abt 8:30am and was like ya know sleep like 4hrs and really after which was like couldnt take it tho....
Actaully they say i m "anti social" well its not that bah but perhaps i think i have no topics within them?? Opps... I mean this is seriously i jus walked behind them and i find nothing to talk to them....
And yea today(4/7/09 , tuesday) i met Allan for lunch but i think he was gg to clementi ite for some purposes then after which i met him outside my station and we go have lunch at sumo house...then we chatted along the way then was like okie la... we chated abt things that what i wanna say then discussed loh...
Actually i m like 50/50 le doesnt know how to endure thru the days of 35 weeks.... its kinda long... zzz..... Sumtimes people tends to regret certain stuff after what they had done i think for me too... Jus taken the wrong path without knowing... its kinda sad....
I think i jus stop here bah....
Monday, March 30, 2009
Worst
Pfff... Kinda tired early in the morning...
Well i m not bad and i m not good looking but could be the worst of all... haiz...
Getting look back then at the pix that was taken with friends i m like omg its worst than ever and i m like -.- so buang i mean my image, my face its like CMI(cannot make it) ugly...
Yea no one is perfect but then again i m not hunk or stuff like that.... Do u think i m actually should exist in this planet?? Coz i jus hate able my face my looks.... Its really worst... at first i thought its jus okie jus right but then again found my photo pix with friends and found out then i m soo ugly and was like omg... Arrgh....
Days were so dull and i make myself as if like life were so colorful but then haiz.... Fancy sum1 but only got to admire that all i can do coz if i were to think abt my image it wouldnt be so nice
Well i dont really know what u people are going to comments but as far as it goes... write watever u can....
I think thats about it then....
Thursday, March 19, 2009
It all Begins...
Haiz... getting kinda sad feeling wanna share sumthing but i jus dunno wad to write abt here...
People says i dont know how to be indepedence, why perhaps i guess but i jus cant do it why i mean needa pocket money (argh)... sumtimes i dunno whether do i have to trust people not or to trust myself more... Sometimes i m thinking, do i really need to change?? or should i stop watever i m doing to all these stuff and refresh a new 1?? I really dont know what i should do...
Struggling all the matters makes me kinda frustrating, scared kinda stuff....
Do i really maintain as 1 or do i need to pursue the other part of me??? People do keep secrets but why they have to hide it among themselves i mean unless u wanna backstab that person or stuff like that.....
Sumtimes i really feel scared...feeling so scared that one day i will lost everything that i really wanna need it, so scared that there is no 1 for me to depend on and i cant really be independence.... :( deep in my heart there's lots of hatteras stuff that cant be 4given...
I know at this part of point mayb dont really understand wat i m trying to write but nvm
sumtimes i really dunno wad i should do and i was kinda scared lots of things if this things gonna happen, well its not abt thinking too much but i really find no 1 to share my thought or problem...i m like trust no1...jus no1.... i m like hiding in a corner of a dark place.... kinda scared.... (sniff...) Really dunno how to plan for my life or mayb........ i dont know what to say.....
People says i dont know how to be indepedence, why perhaps i guess but i jus cant do it why i mean needa pocket money (argh)... sumtimes i dunno whether do i have to trust people not or to trust myself more... Sometimes i m thinking, do i really need to change?? or should i stop watever i m doing to all these stuff and refresh a new 1?? I really dont know what i should do...
Struggling all the matters makes me kinda frustrating, scared kinda stuff....
Do i really maintain as 1 or do i need to pursue the other part of me??? People do keep secrets but why they have to hide it among themselves i mean unless u wanna backstab that person or stuff like that.....
Sumtimes i really feel scared...feeling so scared that one day i will lost everything that i really wanna need it, so scared that there is no 1 for me to depend on and i cant really be independence.... :( deep in my heart there's lots of hatteras stuff that cant be 4given...
I know at this part of point mayb dont really understand wat i m trying to write but nvm
sumtimes i really dunno wad i should do and i was kinda scared lots of things if this things gonna happen, well its not abt thinking too much but i really find no 1 to share my thought or problem...i m like trust no1...jus no1.... i m like hiding in a corner of a dark place.... kinda scared.... (sniff...) Really dunno how to plan for my life or mayb........ i dont know what to say.....
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Every Beginning Has an Ending
Yo! Guys I have been stopped for blogging like for a months or so.... Hopes every has been getting better nowadays as i m down with bad cough and flu these days so irritating manz... 
Well jus wanna say that i got myslef a expensive watch which look like the picture below....
Yea looks expensive but still i bought it... and i still bought a couple of items like ps3 eye toy, remote controller and ps3 2nd player yea it all cost money but jus spent a little for a while....
So for the past months wondering how's allen been since back then he told me that he wanna be silent..... But then by reading blogs found out he's actually been chatting to "Piggy" (opps sorry :P) okie... well mayb i have not been updating blogs i guess......
Hmm.... i still left with 10 more months to go or should i say 9 more months to go kinda fast huh.... Well all i want is what i lost 1 years ago, IF he can giv me back due to my performance and not rejected it.... i will be very happy abt it.....
Well for me i have good times bad times, jus recently i had a deployment well it was kinda fun though why coz first time i had shift work like from 8pm-8am and was like wow tiring huh... in the night time it was good and in the midnight we can like u know eat out at coffee shop kinda stuff and until day break u were like omg very very tired like wanna sleep for whole day omg... grrrr.... but nvm endurance is the key
Then after which for the past few weeks it was like woo hoo every1 in the station was like having free gift why i think maniny because is to help the officer budget this time i guess.....
Each and every1 has a coffee tin, oil maid milk etc.. and tibits like time out chococlate and dairy milk chocolate and a tin of biscuit... nice rite?? Even Rebina too( oi... dun say small kids la, wat they giv jus take la) hehe....
So its really kinda many stuff that happend i mean soemthing that is good to remember while the bad wants haiz... that u dont wanna remember it while some people that wanna rememebr it for life....
Last friday, me and a group of friends whom working in station gather to meet a guy whom left us in station coz he was been transferred to OPA(Old Police Academy) at gombak to eat prata then after which we went to a open space for a chatting gathering then theres this guy keeps staring at us from far end and we were like what the problem with him manz mostly all of them have a WC and i m like wondering whats wrong with him manz and was like craps... After which i went home then...
And as for this week, nothing new but i went for a hair treatment which cost like $980 and my parents paid by credits cards well i have to pay back every months like $98 and actually i m using my own money la jus that she has to pay it in advanced yea...
Why do i has to go fro hair treatment?? coz i the girl in the saloon tell me that i have a skin sensitive(head) and then says that my hair is block its not lie, she show me thru computer and of course her checking hair system la.... yea so thats why i agree with it..... kinda lots to say huh...
Why do i has to go fro hair treatment?? coz i the girl in the saloon tell me that i have a skin sensitive(head) and then says that my hair is block its not lie, she show me thru computer and of course her checking hair system la.... yea so thats why i agree with it..... kinda lots to say huh...
And recently i had bougth a blu0ray disc abt how the animals survive during their times and how earth moved eg like their moutains was like wow so beautiful and lots more.... kinda hard to tell but yea... Thats all folks, thats all for today...
write it again further times....
um.. so guys if u have read it i mean giv comments on wat u guys have been doing coz i jus wanna know how u guys getting better or jus really stress out......
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Short Time
Today going out with my 3 friends at afternoon... We planned to meet at je then after which we go to city hall to walkabout.... Then i had a friend his name is Nicholas, he went to find care bears for his gf... We all went to ms (marina square) first then he walk into mini toons to find care bears.. after which i went to a levis shop to look for my jeans hehe^^ but dunno was it the colour that i want not..... then after that we went for a pit stop at macdonalds for a drink and ice-cream... Then after we hang around there and windows shopping...
Then we went to suntec to hang around there and Nicholas went to the mini toons there to find care bears too and my the other friends buy sweets haha they jus pick as though its free ^^
After which we went to food court to had our dinner then they say food not nice and not full then they go kfc to have second round -.-.... Then Nicholas went to buy the care bears at the shop at last, then after which we left there and went to top shop to see clothes and jackets... woah... the jackets so so expensive but it looks kinda heavy its like leather kind ya know... yeah...
Then we were about walking to trian stations, we stop by to see a watch shop, then my friend ask to take the watch out from display and the price was like omg... $395.... so expensive i thought of snatching it(buying it) but then too expensive liao nvm saved money... dun buy... lol....
Then after that we all left from there.....wakakaka
Then in the trains we all crack stupid jokes haha coz i take out 1 phone first then they said "aeh, u buy new phone ar??" i said ya la then after they say i rich seh... Said things like wha later one phone sms the other on phone talk and then people see la wah so busy ar... then if i wear expensive clothes later end up u see many people behind u... that i was like haha.... nvm... thats all for here as i dun wanna continue......
Then we went to suntec to hang around there and Nicholas went to the mini toons there to find care bears too and my the other friends buy sweets haha they jus pick as though its free ^^
After which we went to food court to had our dinner then they say food not nice and not full then they go kfc to have second round -.-.... Then Nicholas went to buy the care bears at the shop at last, then after which we left there and went to top shop to see clothes and jackets... woah... the jackets so so expensive but it looks kinda heavy its like leather kind ya know... yeah...
Then we were about walking to trian stations, we stop by to see a watch shop, then my friend ask to take the watch out from display and the price was like omg... $395.... so expensive i thought of snatching it(buying it) but then too expensive liao nvm saved money... dun buy... lol....
Then after that we all left from there.....wakakaka
Then in the trains we all crack stupid jokes haha coz i take out 1 phone first then they said "aeh, u buy new phone ar??" i said ya la then after they say i rich seh... Said things like wha later one phone sms the other on phone talk and then people see la wah so busy ar... then if i wear expensive clothes later end up u see many people behind u... that i was like haha.... nvm... thats all for here as i dun wanna continue......
Monday, January 5, 2009
Bored
Haiz... finally all is back... I had a friend whom went to beijing six weeks ago but he came back since 3 days ago... then after which a couple of his friends parents fly to elsewhere... yea it doesnt concern me but jus wanna say it....
Next i m waiting for the SCO concert, dun be sad la... i wanna see how the scenairo played the music.....
Next i m waiting for the SCO concert, dun be sad la... i wanna see how the scenairo played the music.....
Um... anyone has a New Year Revolution?? Jus wanna know peoples wats their revolution mayb share around i sussposed... Kinda writing little but mayb i dun know what i should write any further.... I had a friend who gg to army soon like 2 more days to go (hopes he read but than i guess he never read it) feels kinda sad for him coz he gg a tekong for training while i dun have it haiz.... mayb i m doing sumthing that isnt rite.... way to go.... Chao....
I think thats all for the day....(short but sianz)
Thursday, January 1, 2009
The New Year
Its a brand new year, wonder what going to be?? Nothing much for me...mayb i m too over reaction kinda stuff idk....
Yesterday(31/12/2009) was a eve of new yr day, me and my friend went to vivvo city to watch a show on tv called "Channel 8 Countdown Party 2008" . Wow the show was nice and they had the countdown thingy with the sparkes and was sooo dammm nice......
Then after which sussposed to meet with another friend for a drink de but then went out with another group of friends to hang around town then to bugis for pool.... Its was kinda tiring and i leave the place like 4:30am and i take cabby home and was like 4:55am this morning (1/1/09)...
Then i slept like 5:30am in the morning until abt 1:30pm in the afternoon and i wake up was like head was spinning ya know headache was so also super tired even after sleeping still.... haiz...
People been talking stuff abt me... i mean cmon u wanna say it, pls say it in my face, dont do it behind it...
I beginning to felt friends around me are not trusting me anymore i mean they dont gain trust from me... sumthing that rather tell other people rather than me, yea it dont concern abt me and it dont matter abt me coz its their troubles....so i m being a loniless in a shallow.....pfff i m jus living the way as it is , gain no trust, betrayer, freak hell.... (speechless)
Yesterday(31/12/2009) was a eve of new yr day, me and my friend went to vivvo city to watch a show on tv called "Channel 8 Countdown Party 2008" . Wow the show was nice and they had the countdown thingy with the sparkes and was sooo dammm nice......
Then after which sussposed to meet with another friend for a drink de but then went out with another group of friends to hang around town then to bugis for pool.... Its was kinda tiring and i leave the place like 4:30am and i take cabby home and was like 4:55am this morning (1/1/09)...
Then i slept like 5:30am in the morning until abt 1:30pm in the afternoon and i wake up was like head was spinning ya know headache was so also super tired even after sleeping still.... haiz...
People been talking stuff abt me... i mean cmon u wanna say it, pls say it in my face, dont do it behind it...
I beginning to felt friends around me are not trusting me anymore i mean they dont gain trust from me... sumthing that rather tell other people rather than me, yea it dont concern abt me and it dont matter abt me coz its their troubles....so i m being a loniless in a shallow.....pfff i m jus living the way as it is , gain no trust, betrayer, freak hell.... (speechless)
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