What is this happening??

When comes to bloging always had to crack brains.... have to think what to write so troublesome.... Days passed so far and its already like going to be a year for me in service le..
Many things jus happened.... Sometimes jus had a hard feeling like thinking back time or bad memories... All of us had secret...we jus dont wanna tell...
Its been a week since my friends flies off to beijing and its like another 5 more weeks for him to come back and i m like so bored without him asking me out coz was like kinda rot at home... u know not jus play but sometimes will get the "sian" feeling of not going out...
I have another friend who told me that next tuesday(2nd december08) it was like wow, so fast... everything jus happened so quick that i wasnt aware of it... People do make mistakes i mean human makes mistakes rite?? Well... i m jus woundering wat if i could turn back in time, how i wish i can stop all this from happening that wasnt sussposed to be happening....
Haiz... why was it that people always watch my story or watch it secretly and how am i able to wacth people story secretly?? People whom always been backstab me... why?? i mean its like it happen like ages ago why still wanna bring it up?? Friends in station talk to me sumtimes giving me attitude and why it is so?? i mean like cant they talk properly?? They think they are who they are?? This is so unfair manz... Hmffff...Wonder is this kind of people i met?? how i really wish i can be alone i mean really alone.... coz i cant find a gf yet but mayb becoz of what i m like that kind of attitude or so...idk its jus mulling all over me...
Somethings that i wish for will never happen in me... if it could really happen that i had a trueful gf thats a miracle... kinda weird rite??
I m wondering how am i going to spent my days, time and life all this while, how long does it last or how long does it gonna end??
If all this can be all over again, i might changes for the better.... jus missed the days that i had... haiz.....