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Haiz..Jus wondering why things turned out to be soo bad... I din even tot this would happen... To think might jus help her pay for a lil stuff and tot she was gg fine with me but then nevertheless , she was actually putting on a act... so hurting to me... One of the gals in my classmates phone me and said she(alethea) had delete my number and i was a like kind of devastated...
And i do still think she still bear grudges of what had happen weeks ago... i dont wanna be in this state... She gone out with me and classmates to bugis and to pool arena but then again i din realise this would happen so much, jus wondering why do i had to face these kind of problems.... i really had enuff, i mean if u do treat me as friends dont ever do this to sum1 by putting on a act and then when sum1 being nice to u as a friend but then u take things for granted and then u jus simply delete off the number...
Sometimes i got to know sumthing but always wanted to ask and were to think thrice whether to ask anot coz i jus wanna found out the truth.... i been wanna let the matter rest but deep down in me i know the issue stays there.... or jus wont goes away.... i always wanna apologise truly to her but i jus find it hard to tell her.... Really feel like wanna drop tears... I think there are still people secretly doing sumthing between the matter... I had lose this "battle".. and i m sooo lost and i really dunno wat i should do.... T.T

Many things are happening without knowing til u actually know what was it gg on. To think I jus wanna make more friends buta end up, was kinda losing them and were jus trying to put up a show to treat me nice kinda stuff.... I really wondering how long does this gg to take...

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Its been awhile...

Humans or people keeps changing... it jus have to monitor them to see the changes they have been...

Well weeks ago i have been screwed by a girl who is in my class, dont be mistaken what i mean screwed was being liked played pyschological with me...

It was begins with when i was her "god-brother"... It goes well and smooth at the beginning but then again things jus screwed up my life. She kept it all in one shot and blew it all up.... I remembered i told her b4, if she feel anything not comfortable muz voice up but to avail, she dont... jus being silent...

The problem actually lies with both of us but she jus dont ever think that she is at fault... Alright whats going on here was she said that i m too paranoid abt her, keep asking her stuff e.g. whose on the line kinda stuff and some other stuff i guess... Sometimes jus wanna do what i need to do i mean like protect her dont wanna hurt her kinda stuff.... i jus realised that what i have been going thru in ite in 6 years back and 6 years now, the classmates i know they are soooo much different from what i seen then.... Sumtimes wanted to be nice with them and then since they actually showed the half true colors, i know what they true character are... Jus when the gal aka bei zhi told me that she wanna break "gan" with me, i feel nothing at all, all i wanna know its jus wanna a reason that she can tell me but she jus dont wanna tell me abt it... On the other hand i mean yeah she felt nothing but i do felt things like when she actually starts ignoring me and giving attitude to me she jus find ways to eliminate but i think it fails...

All along i jus think once she had broken me off the god brother thingy, after which there's sum1 whos is secretly doing sumthing behind my back though i do not know who it was and might not even gg to find out but i rest assured this has been going on since the day happens...

Days ago... there was this guy told me sumthing that it overturned rumours and he was in mine class... he told me that the gal whose name was "bei zhi" , her sis really turned everything upside down... Why i say so because i remembered couple months back her sis told me that she dont really like this "A" guy then again mayb months later from then she told "A" that : "No i didnt say that b4" and i was like wtf...telling lies?? Good 1... pushing things to me and speaking from black to white...

Something i didnt said b4 wanna do sumthing that i did said once... well done... u r "GREAT"

Was telling lies that important?? Sumtimes jus wanna get the truth but why every1 was hiding the truth and not telling while sumtimes i tried my best to tell the truth.... argh.. jus so frustarting....

There's actually one more guy i had been hate the most with i dont wanna write his name here mayb its much as the girl hate me.... but he is been irritating and doing sumthing to outcome me or doing things to actually "Get Rid" of me....

I think i jus stops here....

Jus Being so Bad

Jus wondering how come some people they jus cant set to thier designated timing instead when they wake up they tends to keep lying in bed than to wake up... Having a classmate, well wanting to meet for the day to going sch together but jus that i think is either because her phone was breakdown or she jus tired of waiting at the allocated location...

But then again, over the past few weeks i reached the allocated location before her and was like kinda stunning as in like..."yeah rite".... But was it so difficul for me to meet her at the designated timing?? I mean it wasnt so bad but as far as wat i know, she dont really share or tell me most reason, she jus wanna keep things to herself.. Alright i didnt really wanna prob into it but jus wanna know IF she can tell.....

Maybe i m at fault at certain areas but i jus wanna concern her as classmates/friends...
Jus dont wanna her to end up being regretting..... argh nvm 4get abt it.... Jus kinda wanna found out the reason but then she jus said dont know watever the question that i asked...
As days gone longer,sometimes wanna do th4e opposite of her but then again it will be easily for her to find out.... haiz....Days are sooo bad.....

I am LATE for the day

Wake up like 0530 then after which gunna meet my "mei" at woodlands

Then she was late like 10 mins when i reach there but thats okie... Then after she comes telling me waiting for another guy who name was Eugene...

At that time was 0725 and we both still waiting him, but wat the hell he said he was at the first cabin but when we went in, he wasnt in... worst still he make us LATE!! I mean he himself was gunna late dont pulled us down lah... wtf...i cant afford to be laten for classes man...

Seriously, if u wanna meet we guys, plan your timing, and he was coming down from pungol and i was like wtf... eh u know from pungol to cck is how far?? Plan your route lah.. Since u know u r late then take alternate way to meet manz rather then u late rite?? Know what?? Not gonna wait that bustard again, makes us late... Freakers....

Then there was this stupid section head comes in the class like nobody business until i know who was it, then she comes in catch those with long hair and confiscate cigarette... i mean if u wanna catch long hair at least giv chances as u know weekend coming.... still send off ppl (those with long hair) ask them to cut wat the hell... Brainless... Damm Brainless

Then i wear jeans, okie lah.. its my wrong to wear jeans lah ah... but u ask me i told u i had dark blue pants buta u still insist to ask me to and buy black pants... wat the hell...

At least at Balestier not so strict loh... The section head like STEP only.... KNN

Anyway thats all for now.... Niteszz

Is this my fault?

I am almost late for class and i am sussposed to meet classmates at the allocated timing(0920) which i told them but i wake up like 9000hrs....

So i was like keeping rushing the things that i needa do so frustrating...

Then after that when i sch for class late coz having breakfast in cafe(ahh crap) well at least i learned a lil things bah but thanks to a friend thought he spoiled it but luckily i found out what was it about...

Then during class my "mei" she was kinda funny when she say "fong shao" coz she was snatching thngs from a guy called Jeremy, then she ask him to let go thereafter she sing "fang shao, fong kai suo yao..." haha kinda funny... hehe

Then during after school, when she was on phone... well jus dont know if she was telling the truth even though she IS on phone but i dont know if i have done sumthing wrong u see not that i hate when she is on phone with "Joanna" but jus that i dont know if she is on song listening or chatting on phone, i m not that like u know forcing her not to chat on phone or watsoever but after the happening i m like u know feeling kinda guilty or stuff like that...

Not that i grab her thru my arm but i er... kinda mayb a lil selfish or so i guess.... really dont wanna make things so ugly but thats her friend and i cant control it... Argh...

So irritating abt it... kinda really feel so bad abt it when i think abt this matter, well i think its my fault fro what my thinking i guess... Haiz...

Really dunno what should i do about it.....

Days Counting Down!

Its really been while since my last post i guess... Many things had happen in ite...
Well before shifting to CCK ITE, i had accquire one of the gal to be my "gan mei" (aka Bei Zhi)
Things happen around here and dere... How do i start with?? Hmmm...
Alright... lets go back to the days in Balestier ITE where i study there (b4 shifting to new ITE)
Well been observing classmates here and here like to know how they are in character kind of stuff, it was kind of "fun" in there coz get to know most of the classmates there...
One of the bad times was cell phones numbering passing around thru "Freaker" *OPPS* :x taking my cell to take a gal number then both of us being screwed up... Alright then i moved forward to the times when my "mei" gone bad.....
Okie... she was underaged yet she have the nerve to drink alchoho and i was like wtf.... Then again she went "round" to ask friends to see who is legal age to buy drinks for her, well i m already kinda mad at this okie?? like omg when will she ever stop all this?? She even asked her sis abt is this kind/brand of drink nice?? I mean why should she try all this thing?? She even had the nerve to ask me to buy and drink it infront of me.... Thats very "NICE"
Sometimes i am jus wondering well u know i mean jus wanna care her so i am like approach her to tell me abt her personal stuff as known as xin shi... well i not like u know been kaypo or wanna intriguing her life but seriously i jus dont wanna her to like bottle things up to herself but sumtimes to speak up a lil stuff to me i mean yeah....
Alright now lets moved forward again and talk abt wat happen today 5/7/2010 in early morning like 0330.... She called me at this hour while i sleeping jus because she cant sleep.... wow nice 1....
Then ask me for a friend number.... (does she know it was in the wee hours?? Hope she does)
Then today was my first day in new ITE in cck and classes ended somehow quite early... zzz
Dont really like the class adviser as she is LKK (*opps, cover mouth) haha... So yeah i think thats all for now... cya Folks.....

Time Wait For No Man

Time passes everyday jus like that.. Its been 4 months since i started studying ITE Balestier.

Well in shortly 4 months, many things happen here and there and there are stuff which i cant imagine it has to be...

Seeing classmats qurrels, disturbing well all those i seen it. Recently during the Holidays, the class had an outing or rather barbercue outing, well nothing much to said abt here and yeah...

To speak the truth, i wasnt sure what to write down here becoz when i feel wanna write things down here buta when i begin to and it feels like, you know doesnt have the mood to carry on writing here...

And anyway.. i jus end here for now... and i believe this is the shortest blog that i ever entered

What was this happening

Haiz... getting so stressed up, so intensed....
Everything that happened to me was like shattered dreams... sumthing which promised to have ended it was really a shattered dreams....
It was very hurtful to have that, get wad i mean??
On the 12/2/10, couple of happening inside outside school take place.... Well insde school fight of of a misunderstanding then the student was unsound mind then giv a blow to the guy...
As for outside school, well friends between friends classmates between classmates misunderstanding for most of the matter, well was woundering what age are them already?? cant they even stop all these??
On friday 12/2/10, school ended early and i was sussposed to go back but then there are always people screwing up like backstabing... omg idk what is this happening again manz...
Sussposely i was gg there to study but classmates think likewsie and they seem like they were dont really trust me and it very stress sumtimes when they always recognise me as police i mean yea i am in NS spf before but that doesnt mean i m like really haven to go roudn the world and tell?? wtf... i cant set my mind easy i jus dont know how...
i feel like i am going to breakdown sumhow and the student there was like they know more things than me.... so stressed up....

A Long Time

Well its has been a long time since i updated my bloggy... Its been some time and i have been enrolled into ITE Balestier study there for a week since then...

Its kinda tiring to wake up so early that had to get preapre for everything kinda stuff... Sometimes when i wanna write my blog but then again felt that i doesnt know what to write in there like no topic for me to write....

During my first week in school, after get to know some of them and i was like u know wow i m 6 years behind them like i am 23 and they are like 17years old...One of the classmate he was like kinda immature i mean its true....The way he act was like omg has he grown up yet?? Then sumtimes when a group of us hanging out with him and was feeling like bringing out a kid lol...

but yeah.... But overall he is really okie tobe friend bah jus that sometimes he cant behave himself outside in public places or in bus to make people feel ashamed,couldnt take it manz...

Well i still have a long way to go before i complete my ITE studies but i have to struggle through my studies haiz... its difficult times u know what i mean??

That all for now... might write again after some days